so I don't ask names anymore

"sometimes i think this cycle never ends, we slide from top to bottom and we turn and climb again"

I've recently realized that i have completely stopped using people's names. It's really weird. I do not use names when I am talking to people directly.

And I am wondering if it is because I am afraid I will get too attached and then will lose them. In books, when the author wants you to get attached to a character, they will give them a name. when you name a pet, you become more attached to it. Names=attachment.

And for me, I worry about attachment because I have learned not a lot of things are permanent. very very few things are. People come and go in life. And I do not like getting left behind or losing someone. But that happens in life, usually only a few close friends stay, and a lot of other people move on. It's just part of life. And I need to stop being afraid.

so I really need to start using names. Because it is impersonal not to. and it bothers me that I don't. And I think it offends people too. I mean I like to be greeted by my name, so I assume that other people do as well. especially people you have known for a long time. it's way better to hear "hey, Katie whats up?" rather than "heyyyy! how are you?" It's just friendlier. so yeah...

names are just difficult.